My world shattered when I discovered my boyfriend was someone's sugar daddy. Here's how I navigated his betrayal, made my tough choices, and redefined my life.
Brief Index
- Sugar Baby Heartbreak
- Money, Power, the whole Enchilada!
- LET'S LOOK TO THE FUTURE
- My Final Thoughts
Sugar Baby Heartbreak
What comes around goes Around
When I saw that text message on Jake's phone, everything in my world didn’t just tilt but upside down. There it was, just a casual "Thanks for the allowance, daddy " from Amber. My stomach dropped. After being together for 3 years, I came to know my boyfriend is a sugar daddy of a girl.
In other words, I’m not some conservative or traditionalist clutching my pearls at unconventional ideas or setups. I'm a modern woman who believes in autonomy and choice. But I am someone who expects honesty in my relationship. And this? This wasn't what we talked about over brunch on Sunday.
Wait, What Exactly Am I Dealing With Here?
Before I faced Jake, I had to figure out what exactly I had. What does being a "sugar daddy" really mean in 2025?
Here’s my understanding (thanks for private browser mode): generally, it is an arrangement between an older, financially stable person who offers money, gifts, or other benefits to a younger “sugar baby” in exchange for companionship, which may include sex. There is a rainbow of arrangements that can mean anything from basically dating to escorting.
It's not the idea that left me shaking with rage and hurt in my bathroom at 2AM. What hurt me was that my partner —the man who says to tell him everything—had an entire relationship behind my back. A relationship wherein there was an exchange of money, there might be intimacy, there might be connection.
Unpacking All. The. Feelings.
That night, I felt everything as fast as I flipped through my TikTok before bed. Betrayal? Check. Jealousy? Absolutely. Curiosity? Weirdly, yes. Questioning my self-worth? Unfortunately, also yes.
I wondered to myself if I wasn't enough. Was our sex life disappointing him? Did he need something I couldn't provide? I had the feminist thought that this was unhelpful – I’m not responsible for fulfilling every single need of my partner. But the human in me couldn't help the spiral.
Once the shock wore off, I realized I should know why. It’s not merely why he needed a sugar baby but why he felt he couldn’t be truthful to me. This is about more than sex or money, but about the truth and being honest.
The Confrontation I Never Wanted to Have.
I finally confronted Jake after three days of emotional turmoil. I am proud to say I managed to keep my cool and not yell or throw any glass. Instead, I came up with “I” statements that my therapist would be proud of.
I uncovered something that has genuinely hurt me, I want to figure it out
His face when I mentioned Amber's text? Priceless. And telling. He didn't deny it. What actually happened was that we talked for three hours, and I learned a lot about my boyfriend.
Jake said it made him feel powerful to pay. He said he likes how simple a relationship is when there are clear terms. He admitted that he loved our life together but sometimes found the emotional intensity of a “real” relationship too much.
Money, Power, the whole Enchilada!
The Money Question.
The financial aspect really did get to me, I’ll be honest. Although it might have been the case that he spent money on other women, my life is good proof of how days can ultimately turn for the better.
When I said this to Jake, he looked truly shocked as he compartmentalised so well that he had not thought of this. It was not just sex; it was about where he was spending money in what I thought was a partnership. About what we prioritize. I wondered if we were really creating something together or just acting like a couple while he works on another project.
Power Dynamics for me just got Real!
The entire situation made me look into my feminism for something I had not expect to do. I believe in sexual autonomy. I support sex workers' rights. Not all partnerships need to be monogamous, I reject this notion.
But I also believe that everyone consents to relationships. I believe in equality within partnerships. I couldn’t ignore the troubling power dynamic. Not just between Jake and Amber, but also between Jake and I. He was making decisions solely on his own that affected our relationship and didn’t give me any choice in it.
Did this really relate to sexual or emotional needs, or was this control? Is it about letting him have one relationship where he has all the power and maintaining another where we were equal?
The Heart-Wrenching Decision I had to Make.
My decision came after a bunch of hard talks, many tears, and one session on the emergency couch. Could I be with someone who has such a huge secret? Could we rebuild trust? Did I even want to?
It was especially hard for me to do because I still loved Jake. In many ways, we built a wonderful life together. We had our own inside jokes, Sunday traditions, and a shared vision for the future—or so I thought.
But love isn't always enough. A solid relationship is built on trust, respect, and shared beliefs. And that foundation had been severely damaged.
I decided to take a two-week break to clear my head. I stayed at my sister’s, took care of myself, wrote in my journal non-stop, and consulted my dearest friends. I wanted a viewpoint unhindered by Jake's guilt and the shared memories in the apartment we used to stay in.
LET'S LOOK TO THE FUTURE
Finding My Way Forward.
After spending two weeks apart, I learned that this situation was not just about whether I could forgive Jake. It focused on what sort of relationship I wanted and deserved.
I deserved transparency. I deserve someone who wouldn’t make major relationship decisions without me. I deserve someone who cared enough about me to be honest, even if that honesty was hard or difficult.
When we finally met at a neutral coffee shop (I know this sounds dramatic but it was necessary), I felt stronger and clearer than I had in weeks. I made it clear to Jake what I wanted: complete honesty about the sugar relationship (had it ended? what were the exact arrangements?), couples therapy, full access to his phone and financial records for the foreseeable future, and his patience while I took my time to process everything—I promised that I wouldn’t want to make this tapping the end of the world.
Was this controlling behavior on my part? Maybe. Rebuilding trust takes something extra. If he can’t accept those terms, then we’ve got nothing to work with.
The Unexpected Silver Lining or so I believed! .
In a relationship, like an earthquake, the first thing which comes to an end is a marriage.
We were going to have tough conversations we’d been avoiding. About needs we weren't expressing. About money and power and sex and emotional labor. About what partnership really means to each of us.
I won't pretend everything is perfect now. Six months later, we're still in therapy. I still have moments of doubt. But there is an honesty to our relationship that did not exist before. We now have new boundaries, space to communicate challenging topics, and don’t lie (even when it’s hard).
I'm not saying everyone should stay after such a betrayal. For many, this would be—and should be—a dealbreaker. But for me, the work of rebuilding was worth it, whether or not it lasts in the end.
My Final Thoughts
What I Want You to Know Right Now.
If you’re going through something similar, just know your emotions are real. None of them—the fury, the pain, the confusion, even the mysterious curiosity. Feel them fully.
You must also understand that you deserve honest relationships. You deserve agency in decisions that affect your life. You deserve a partner who respects you and tells the truth even if it might be tough.
When you decide whether to stay or leave, do so from a place of self-respect and understanding of your own needs and values. The bond you share with yourself serves as the bedrock for every other relationship you have in your life.
And that relationship? A relationship must always be built on honesty, compassion and a steadfast commitment to yourself.
About the Author Riley Dindun is a 28-year-old freelance relationship writer based in Kamloops. A background in women's studies, she brings real world experience to her articles. She loves podcasts, pizza, and her fish. Follow her on Instagram.
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